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After a year and a half of stupid B.S., my band Left to Question is finally starting to actually act like a real band.  More and more we’ve been getting songs written and written well.  We’ve started to get a better idea of what we are and what kind of music we’re making.  Our writting methodology is attaining solidity and our individual visions of identity are becoming one,  It’s the first band I’ve been in “officially” (I’m one of the founding members, the other is the vocalist) but the guitarist he “found” has become an essential core member indespensible to this project, he’s come a long way from when we met him.  It’s been a long hard road to even feel excited about what I do, but for the first time in my life I feel that I have something to live for and be truly passionate about.

Before this point, I worked negatively against everything.  A part of what formed the original concept of the band was the fact that I saw what everyone else was doing as obvious, simple, and predigested.  This was a very negative way to see things but that’s actually what brought our vocalist and I together.  We both felt the same way.  but this was my first band, and I had no real idea of what I was doing.  I wanted to do a lot of things and I had no idea where they would go and we ended up not getting a single thing done because of it.  Finally all of this and other things tore us all apart.

I started doing my own thing for a bit when I felt like it but there was no real motivation.  Eventually last January the opportunity came up to join in a cover band.  Originally I was just going to replace the bassist they had because he sucked *shrug*. But instead the rest of the band with the exception of the founding member left due to this and that.  He eventually got one of his old drummer friends up and now we do gigs about once a month or so.

I learned so much from them.

not really as in they taught me anything overtly but being around in an easy setting doing it for the fun of it helped me both develop my focus, develop my style, and know how Rock ‘n Roll is developed.  When my guitarist finally was able to make regular trips up here to jam.  Using what I had learned we started writing for Left to Question again.  Since then each song has been better than the last, with potential.

What Changed in me is that I’ve become forward thinking, postively minded, and determined.  It could be that I’ve only developed hubris, but that’s always been there.

I’m determined to make this something, I’m determined to be something, I’m determined to make everyone else I meet to do the same.  This is my passion, I want nothing more.